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Friday, October 23, 2009

today...

Not feeling to well today its partially because im sick and also because yesterday was horrible I don't know what happened but I just let down my guard and let all of these thoughts come flooding back im collecting it all back but its getting hard. I keep on thinking what would have happened if he didn't get caught would I still be stuck in his lies not knowing any better. I don't know where these thoughts are exactley coming from but its making me feel sick. hopefully this weekend will be a good recovery emotionaly and physically. I've just got to build it all back up, and im going to be fine im pretty sure of it.

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3 comments:

Barbara(aka Layla) said...

Aww, I'm sorry you're not feeling good :(

I hope its very short lived. I am learning to push unwanted thoughts out of my mind as soon as they enter, but its still upsetting. Hang in there, kiddo, okay?

LceeL said...

The thing is ... he WAS caught and it IS over and you CAN move on. When thoughts like that come ... when they intrude their way into your mind ... don't fight them. Welcome them. Say "Yes, it could have been bad if he hadn't been caught - but look where I am now!!"

The mind is a funny thing. Whatif's will drive you crazy and they're going to come into your mind whether you want them to or not. Just remember the whatif's can't hurt you - all they can do is serve to show you how far you've come.

Oh, and get better. It's no fun being sick.

Susan said...

I love your quotes! I love that you're a survivor. Hang in there!