trial

the next pre trial is coming up, on October 2nd to be exact. around this  time I start to get really nervous and easily angry I already have some what of an anger issue which I will admit , and usually I can control it. but around this t ime I have so much going on in my head its hard to keep it in check.
Ive been quitting smoking recently which is very hard because everytime another trial comes up I break it and have one. its probably not the best idea to quit in such a stressful situation but I only smoke on the days of the trials now so at least im improving...
dam I could go for a cigarette right now, anyways he's pleaded not guilty on all acts for the first 2 trials so I don't know whats going to happen in this one, probably the prosecuter will start  releasing the evidence to the court.  I haven't gone to court I want to so that I can say all that happened and help in putting him away. but I don't think they will have me testify unless it is taken to a jury.
I feel a bit stronger knowing that at least the court system is moving along no matter how slowly its moving.

when I find out more ill keep you all updated, thanks for reading I feel good knowing theres people out there who want to listen.