Happy Thanksgiving...

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. Its not really the time of year that I enjoy but I am thankful for many things.

Im thankful for My Family, my twin sister for being so close when I need her, my dad for understanding everything and my mom little sis and brother for staying.

Im thankful for the justice system (though it moves so slow)

Im thankful for forgivness and understanding.

For the people that read this blog.

For the friends ive made, for the people that have been in my shoes they give me hope.

for the kindness of people ive never met (thanks Barbara)

for the ability to change and turn my life around.

for the want to change.

there are so many more things but I can list them all.

What are you thankful for?

blogger award

The rules are as follows:

1. Thank whoever gave this to you

2. Copy award

3. Post it in your blog

4. Tell us 7 things that your readers don’t know about you

5. Link 7 new bloggers

6. Notify winners of the award with a comment on their blog

7. Keep being awesome!

Thanks to Barbara for giving this to me i'd like to pass it on to...

LceeL http://gsp-shadow.blogspot.com/
Sarah http://www.cultofdeception.blogspot.com/
Two Hours before http://twohoursbefore.blogspot.com/
Dad And Mom  http://parentsofanaddict.blogspot.com/
Barbara http://barbara-007.blogspot.com/
Sydney http://ashesjustlookprettyonyoureyes.blogspot.com/
Syeera _ No link

lets see 7 things people dont know about me

1. Most of my followers probably don't know that im a twin.
2. I love meeting new people and talking to them and sharing points of view if you want to share just say something.
3. I owe how strong I am today to some people On this website thanks Barbara.
4. I spend most of my time dirt bike riding and in the desert.
5. I wouldn't be as understanding of a person if it wasn't for the shit ive had to deal with in my past.
6. I have a messed up knee that gives out at random times mostly when im going up the stairs I also have several concentrations of calcified blood in my shin.
7. I had a cervical cancer/ HPV scare and it really changed my out look on how I live my life( thank god im okay now)

Rape victim bill of rights

found this on a site http://www.dancinginthedarkness.com/

the rape victim(survivor) bill of rights

As a Matter of Personal AUTHORITY, You Have the Right ...

...to manage your life according to your own values and judgment

...to direct your recovery, answerable to no one for your goals, effort, or progress

...to gather information to make intelligent decisions about your recovery

...to seek help from a variety of sources, unhindered by demands for exclusivity

..to decline help from anyone without having to justify the decision

..to have faith in your powers of self restoration -- and to seek allies who share it

...to trust allies in healing as much as any adult can trust another, but no more

...to be afraid and to avoid what frightens you

...to decide for yourself whether, when, and where to confront your fear

...to learn by experimenting, that is, to make mistakes.

For the Preservation of Personal BOUNDARIES, You Have the Right ...
...to be touched only with your permission, and only in ways that are comfortable

...to choose to speak or remain silent, about any topic or at any moment

...to choose to accept or decline feedback, suggestions, or interpretations

...to ask for help in healing, without having to accept help with work, play, or love

...to challenge any crossing of your boundaries

...to take appropriate action to end any trespass that does not cease when challenged.

I was just thinking...

I want to get to that point again were my parents have complete trust in me, I know they have no reason for them to trust me except for the fact that I have changed and I wnat them to understand thatits been 2 years I want to get to that point but I understand they may need more time. It is just so hard to have the ones you care about the most look at you in that way. I hope it turns around my dad has excepted it more thanmy mom I wnat her to get to that point...

just thinking about it all right now kind of tough to take it in its just so heavy.

another NOT TRIAL

Trial got postponed today again till January 8th lets hope somthing happens next time
the court system sucks and im so pissed about all of this to many thoughts right now to even write right now...

Busy

This week should be really busy and crazy on friday the 13th there is going to be another trial, but Barbara said shed go and be my ears again so massive loads of thanks!!
and this sunday the 15th is my Birthday so at least I have that to look forward to going to disneyland and truning 17. its crazy when you think about how much time has actually passed since all of that happened...
I'm going to try and keep it a good week.

Questions For You...

hey everyone so this blog is to let everyone know and understand how I deal and cope with all of this shit.

My question for all of you are,
How do you guys deal with your problems and your past what are your coping strategies I'd love to have everyone share there stories and how they cope.

so come on and share!!